Jaded | 心碎

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𝑱𝒖𝒏𝒈𝒌𝒐𝒐𝒌.. 𝒌𝒐𝒐..

You changed me.

Scared is an understatement, I was terrified.

It all happened so fast.

You owned my heart in such little time,

I thought

how is one capable of captivating someone

such as myself.

Could've been our first few conversations...

maybe it was your calm voice..

the way you laughed.

you're smile

or maybe

It was your presence I loved so much.

Having you beside me, allowed me to let go

In a way I could've never Imagined.

You know I'm not good with expressing myself,

which Is why I got so emotional when you understood me without effort.

You teased me for it, calling me soft

but opening up had never felt so good

because it was to you.

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But-

We loved hard & held on even harder

long after we should've let go.

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We grew distant, and it broke my heart.

Our conversations then,

couldn't compare to the ones in the beginning.

I didn't think nothing of it at first,

I was blinded by love & excuses.

'Fighting' was said to be normal

but that night..

when I came home..

having had too much to drink,

everything became so heated.

I was sure after that..

after we made up..

that we'd laugh at it all later.

and that we'd be inseparable-

but man I was wrong.

We never got to make up.

We never got to laugh.

You stormed out that night,

after screaming about

how much you hated me.

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That was a month ago.

Your parents called me today.

Hearing that you ed away..

I couldn't accept it.

Or last conversation.. the fight..

It kept filling my mind.

I reread all of our texts, and still..

It seems so unreal.

It didn't hit me until your mother mentioned

what exactly happened.

..that you ed in a car crash.

On your way to to my house

to apologize..

I have never regretted something so much.

You deserved better.

You were young. So sweet and innocent..

𝑱𝒖𝒏𝒈𝒌𝒐𝒐𝒌.. 𝒌𝒐𝒐..

I love you

I miss you

I hope to see you again soon

in a better place..

where we can both live happily

together.

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我不要像煙花一樣的愛情，我情願擁有像流水一樣的愛，永遠都不會斷。

"ᴵ ᵈᵒⁿ’ᵗ ʷᵃⁿᵗ ᵃ ˡᵒᵛᵉ ˡⁱᵏᵉ ᶠⁱʳᵉʷᵒʳᵏˢ. ᴵ ʷᵒᵘˡᵈ ʳᵃᵗʰᵉʳ ʰᵃᵛᵉ ᵃ ⁿᵉᵛᵉʳ⁻ᵉⁿᵈⁱⁿᵍ ˡᵒᵛᵉ ˡⁱᵏᵉ ᵗʰᵉ ᶠˡᵒʷ ᵒᶠ ᵃ ʳⁱᵛᵉʳ”