I look at stars, and they perish

It would be better if you disappeared. In a forest, not being able to find a way out again. In the Arctic, to be eaten by polar bears. Whatever way, I want you gone. I should have wished that from the beginning. The first time you kissed me. The first time you hugged me. The first time you said 'I love you'.

I should have wished all that from the start.

Stars perish every time I think about you, just like when I always had a good grade in French class, and after a while, I started failing miserably. One of us has to survive out of both of us.

Maybe that is you,

Like always.

Go away.

Just go away.

I am just trying to survive. I don't need you to change. If anything, you were just a lesson to be taught. I hope it is too late for you to change. That you have gone past the mark, lost the race, and not crumbled down, convincing yourself that you need to change. So please don't change, as I want to do better than you. I know I can.

You encouraged me with bitter words. In the end, it wasn't up to me as you cornered me. There was no salvation for me back then. What about you? What are you going to do now? Just go away, you are bad luck. Let me shine like the handful of stars there are in the night sky.

Go away,

Just go away.

I am not sorry for the pain I caused you. I will just try to survive till I am no longer aware of what I am doing anymore. I don't forgive you if you really notice this time.

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